EDIT: Photos Have Been Removed!
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Okay, you asked for it, so here are A and SC. A is the cutie in the black hat, and SC is the cutie who's trying to play like he's a model! Btw, don't worry about the girl in A's picture, that's paige, one of his friends, who might I say is amazingly photogenic as she is not pretty at all in real life.
Yesterday went well, I saw A and SC, and had easy convo with both. Then later I messaged them (and like three other people) on FB warning that I am going to have my camera tomorrow and take pics. The slightly off thing is that SC responded, but A didn't, and through my nancy drew esque skills, I know that A was on FB. It's irritating. The real reason I can't choose between the two is all A's fault. Every time I decide he's just too confusing he does something cute and sweet. And then when I say maybe he's just awkward and I should just stick with him he screws up. SC is consistently amazing and sweet, I'm just always so tongue tied around him (wow, I just got a very nice visual...) So those are the boys and that's my delimma. Haha, I should tell you guys what SC wrote back to my message:
"Sounds fun, I'll be sure to put some makeup on, doll myself up a bit..."
Lmao. Hahahaha.
Anyway, I've been doing well with the intake lately...haven't been liquid fasting, but for the most part it's been soup, gum, small pieces of cornbread, smoothies, and like prunes (because I really do like eating them). That's been my diet all week. Actually looking at it now it's not bad.
Yesterday I went out and played model on the lakefront with my dad, I have this one pic that makes me look so cute! Okay, snap decision, I'm gonna post it. You guys deserve to know what I look like. And I'll take it down along with A and SC on friday.
I love you guys so much and thank you for always being there to support me. I'm doing my very best to make you proud!
XOXO,
Scarlet<3
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Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Monday, April 5, 2010
Growing Pains
O I've made mistakes, and you say it's just growing pains, when I feel ashamed, you tell me it's just growing pains, when I'm crying out for change, you tell me it's just growing pains, and O I've made mistakes, and yes I know it's growing pains
---'Growing Pains' by La Roux
So yeah...that's how I'm feeling rite now. But I haven't done that much bad stuff, it's mostly because I'm a masochist and weigh myself during hell week. NO ONE else does this. I've read at least a zillion blogs that the people say they just don't weigh. But I can't resist. I keep seeing that sky-high number and I feel like crying. And I try to say maybe it's a bad dream and it'll go away. I'm up 5.2 lbs total and it won't fucking go away. I mean I guess it will eventually, but being that high is screwing with my head. I also have a presentation to do in my humanities class tomorrow and I bought this cute top that looked amazing on me on friday...but now idk. I haven't tried it on but I guess it doesn't matter, the gain is mostly in my head!
Omgosh sorry I have been a bit of a downer lately, I am just stressed out and this weight and stuff is killing me. Note to scarlet: don't weigh until SUNDAY!
Okay, I'm happy again. Telling you guys and rationalizing it made me feel a zillion times better.
So this week should be interesting. I'm soooo excited. Apart from my humanities presentation tomorrow and then my fluid mechanics exam on weds, I think the big thing this week will be my physics lab this thursday. I mean, I was lab partners with A last time, and SC the lab before that. So what will be the pair this week??? Will A try to be my partner again this week, even though MF is going to be back from St. Louis? Also, if A does try to be my lab partner, will SC have something to say about it??? Hahaha, I love the potential of this situation. I mean it could be that everything goes back to normal, but on the other hand, it also can go interesting.
Oh I have a question for you guys: okay, I am nervous about putting my pic up yet (when I get to 183 I swear I'll post one, I know, a long time, but not too long hopefully!), but I have two really cute pictures of A and SC. Sooo, if you wanna c them, let me know in the comments of this post and I'll post them on weds, and take them down on friday morning (because they have the right to privacy too!). That way you can see these two boys I am so torn between!! Hahaha.
M-ilie: hahahaha, I hope it's a good sign too! I am just sooo confused when it comes to boys it's ridiculous. When I was young I didn't get the whole "little boys terrorize girls they like" concept. I pretty much just beat the crap outta them, hahaha. Thankfully I've matured hahaha.
XOXO,
Scarlet<3
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---'Growing Pains' by La Roux
So yeah...that's how I'm feeling rite now. But I haven't done that much bad stuff, it's mostly because I'm a masochist and weigh myself during hell week. NO ONE else does this. I've read at least a zillion blogs that the people say they just don't weigh. But I can't resist. I keep seeing that sky-high number and I feel like crying. And I try to say maybe it's a bad dream and it'll go away. I'm up 5.2 lbs total and it won't fucking go away. I mean I guess it will eventually, but being that high is screwing with my head. I also have a presentation to do in my humanities class tomorrow and I bought this cute top that looked amazing on me on friday...but now idk. I haven't tried it on but I guess it doesn't matter, the gain is mostly in my head!
Omgosh sorry I have been a bit of a downer lately, I am just stressed out and this weight and stuff is killing me. Note to scarlet: don't weigh until SUNDAY!
Okay, I'm happy again. Telling you guys and rationalizing it made me feel a zillion times better.
So this week should be interesting. I'm soooo excited. Apart from my humanities presentation tomorrow and then my fluid mechanics exam on weds, I think the big thing this week will be my physics lab this thursday. I mean, I was lab partners with A last time, and SC the lab before that. So what will be the pair this week??? Will A try to be my partner again this week, even though MF is going to be back from St. Louis? Also, if A does try to be my lab partner, will SC have something to say about it??? Hahaha, I love the potential of this situation. I mean it could be that everything goes back to normal, but on the other hand, it also can go interesting.
Oh I have a question for you guys: okay, I am nervous about putting my pic up yet (when I get to 183 I swear I'll post one, I know, a long time, but not too long hopefully!), but I have two really cute pictures of A and SC. Sooo, if you wanna c them, let me know in the comments of this post and I'll post them on weds, and take them down on friday morning (because they have the right to privacy too!). That way you can see these two boys I am so torn between!! Hahaha.
M-ilie: hahahaha, I hope it's a good sign too! I am just sooo confused when it comes to boys it's ridiculous. When I was young I didn't get the whole "little boys terrorize girls they like" concept. I pretty much just beat the crap outta them, hahaha. Thankfully I've matured hahaha.
XOXO,
Scarlet<3
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Saturday, April 3, 2010
The Red Badge Of Totally Screwed
Sooo, mother nature decided to show up today. Gee thanks, so not happy to see you. Anyway, I did gain weight, but I have no idea whether or not it's water weight or real weight. Doesn't matter though, I'm still water fasting today regardless.
In other news though, interesting development on the A frontier. I thought after being friends on FB with A I would creep his page less, but I actually do it more because I can see everything. I made a small discovery that made me happy. One of A's friends (that idk) named Kendall (who's gay, btw) wrote on his wall:
"Jailbait. That is all."
At first I was like wtf? Then it hit me: he's talking about ME. Then I felt like kicking Kendall's ass right then and there. You know, after I find him or something, lol. Anyway, the point is that A must be feeling romantically inclined because he's asking people's advice! Yes, yes, yes!!!!!! So my plan is to bring up that I'm planning my big 18th, which should lead into A asking when my bday is. In which case I will let him know it's in the first week of november. Yeah, jailbaitness will not be a "problem" for long. Also, what always cracks me up is that guys don't realize it's only "jailbait" if you have sex with the underage person, not if you date them dumbass. Anyway, I see that as a good sign that he's asking advice about going out with me. Which is totally awesome.
My water fast is going well, nothing has and nothing will cross my lips!
Comments!
M-ilie: hahahahaha, thanks, I was worried I was getting too high and mighty! Lol. :)
Charlie: To err is part of the human condition my dear. And life is a big rollercoaster, especially the weightloss part of it. But while most people give up, when the chips are down WE don't. We never quit, we never stop fighting, we never stop trying, because we know you only fail when you quit, so like the energizer bunny we keep going. And eventually slow as it may seem, we wake up one day and we find we've made it. We're thin. We did it, and we're never gonna let it go! Love you too babe...also in a totally non-weird way, lol stay strong!<3
XOXO,
Scarlet<3
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Edit:
Kendall's wall posting? Mysteriously removed. I guess someone (A!) Didn't want me to see it. Yeah, that wouldve worked if I wasn't a FB addict and also check your page everytime I go on FB. Good try though, lol.
In other news though, interesting development on the A frontier. I thought after being friends on FB with A I would creep his page less, but I actually do it more because I can see everything. I made a small discovery that made me happy. One of A's friends (that idk) named Kendall (who's gay, btw) wrote on his wall:
"Jailbait. That is all."
At first I was like wtf? Then it hit me: he's talking about ME. Then I felt like kicking Kendall's ass right then and there. You know, after I find him or something, lol. Anyway, the point is that A must be feeling romantically inclined because he's asking people's advice! Yes, yes, yes!!!!!! So my plan is to bring up that I'm planning my big 18th, which should lead into A asking when my bday is. In which case I will let him know it's in the first week of november. Yeah, jailbaitness will not be a "problem" for long. Also, what always cracks me up is that guys don't realize it's only "jailbait" if you have sex with the underage person, not if you date them dumbass. Anyway, I see that as a good sign that he's asking advice about going out with me. Which is totally awesome.
My water fast is going well, nothing has and nothing will cross my lips!
Comments!
M-ilie: hahahahaha, thanks, I was worried I was getting too high and mighty! Lol. :)
Charlie: To err is part of the human condition my dear. And life is a big rollercoaster, especially the weightloss part of it. But while most people give up, when the chips are down WE don't. We never quit, we never stop fighting, we never stop trying, because we know you only fail when you quit, so like the energizer bunny we keep going. And eventually slow as it may seem, we wake up one day and we find we've made it. We're thin. We did it, and we're never gonna let it go! Love you too babe...also in a totally non-weird way, lol stay strong!<3
XOXO,
Scarlet<3
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Edit:
Kendall's wall posting? Mysteriously removed. I guess someone (A!) Didn't want me to see it. Yeah, that wouldve worked if I wasn't a FB addict and also check your page everytime I go on FB. Good try though, lol.
Friday, April 2, 2010
Small Edit For Today
So I still made good, and we did our walk, but then we went to that vegetarian place we love (read: I hate) and got some stuff. I got: battered fries (a whole basket, with ketchup!), a third of a veggie stirfry dish, and a carob brownie that was pretty big. Ate it ALL, but drank like six cups of water with it. Hmmm, wonder why? Probably because as soon as I came home I purged the hell out of it. It came up fairly easy, unfortunately (but somehow fortunetly) I am getting better at purging. It will not be a crutch though! Must stay in control and use it in dire circumstances (like today). I'll probably at the very least skip smoothies and soup tomorrow and just do a juice fast or a water fast. It depends on what I weigh tomorrow:
1.5 lbs or less---> juice fast
1.6 or more--->water fast
Wish me luck!
XOXO,
Scarlet<3
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1.5 lbs or less---> juice fast
1.6 or more--->water fast
Wish me luck!
XOXO,
Scarlet<3
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Scarlet Makes Good!
So the big mystery: what did scarlet wind up eating?
Well I was gonna do the egg white omlette thing but everything at this restaurant comes with pancakes. I was last to order, but my dad got the vegitarian skillet and it was out my mouth before I could think twice. Hmm, so diced potato style hash browns mixed with veggies, topped with eggs and cheese, along with three buttermilk pancakes. Hell no. I changed the eggs to egg whites and said no cheese. When the food came I immediately pawned off a pancake to my mom who was unhappy with her measly three choc.chip pancakes with her two eggs. Ha. Take that miss I weigh 165. Then I used like thread size streams of syrup (two on the egg whites, three on the pancakes) and skipped the creamed butter. I ate the 2 pancakes, ate the eggs (which did not have grease! Woo!) And ate all of the veggies out of the hash browns (okay, I might have had a few pieces but mostly not). Then I did another mean thing: I knew my mom had wanted hash browns...so I gave her the now veggie-less hash browns. Which she drowned in syrup and promptly ate. I hope this doesn't make me a bad person to say that I felt SUPERIOR not eating all of that crap?
Then since it's so nice out today I suggested we walk on the lakefront. I killed them for an hour one way, and right now we're taking a rest (as soon as I post this I am going to suggest walking back). So let's see, assuming we kept at least a 2.5 mi/hr pace, it'll be about 5 mi total. Yeah, that sounds good enough to obliterate what I ate. Who knows, I might actually lose some weight!
Okay, off to go walk and enjoy the weather!!!!!!
XOXO,
Scarlet <3
PS: I have found my new idol: Lara Stone. 5'10 and a size 4. I want to be this sooooo badly. I'm posting a picture. Idk where it's going to show up at, probably at the top. I am also obsessed with Zoë Saldana, she's so thin and pretty. Her picture is up there too!<3
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How Do You Like Your Eggs In The Morning?
Invisible. Non-existant. Not in the form of anything.
Bad news. So my grandfather passed on sunday, but due to the fact that there were some major strains in the family and heartless betrayal and such, I didn't know my grandfather very well and didn't like what I saw when I did see him. So I don't feel much. But my mom is kind of conflicted cause she's not going to the funeral because the people there are gonna make things ugly if we go. So anyway, the funeral is tomorrow, my mom and dad got this "awesome" idea to go celebrate my grandfather's life by going to eat his favorite kind of food: breakfast. So tomorrow I am expected to eat. I am going out of my fucking mind. I keep trying to come up with healthy choices: eggs? Yeah, drenched in grease. Pancakes? Really? All those carbs and sugar and did I mention SYRUP? Maybe just eat a meal and purge it? You and what army of toothbrushes, you novice purger. It normally takes me, idk ten minutes to do a full purge. I don't think I can do that at the restaurant and I don't think it's got a single person bathroom. So I'm kinda screwed. I could take laxies but they don't help much. Mine are too weak. They aren't exlax, they're like correctol, read: no pain, but also doesn't work as well. Help me!!!! What do I eat????? Also I should note that would just about be it for the rest of the day. Maybe a small juice at night if I absolutely need it, but whatever happens at the restaurant will be IT.
Help,help,help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thank you guys for your sweet comments about the weight loss. I'd say more to effectively show how much I appreciate it, but I'm wayyy too stressed right now. Just know I love you.
XOXO,
Scarlet <3
Bad news. So my grandfather passed on sunday, but due to the fact that there were some major strains in the family and heartless betrayal and such, I didn't know my grandfather very well and didn't like what I saw when I did see him. So I don't feel much. But my mom is kind of conflicted cause she's not going to the funeral because the people there are gonna make things ugly if we go. So anyway, the funeral is tomorrow, my mom and dad got this "awesome" idea to go celebrate my grandfather's life by going to eat his favorite kind of food: breakfast. So tomorrow I am expected to eat. I am going out of my fucking mind. I keep trying to come up with healthy choices: eggs? Yeah, drenched in grease. Pancakes? Really? All those carbs and sugar and did I mention SYRUP? Maybe just eat a meal and purge it? You and what army of toothbrushes, you novice purger. It normally takes me, idk ten minutes to do a full purge. I don't think I can do that at the restaurant and I don't think it's got a single person bathroom. So I'm kinda screwed. I could take laxies but they don't help much. Mine are too weak. They aren't exlax, they're like correctol, read: no pain, but also doesn't work as well. Help me!!!! What do I eat????? Also I should note that would just about be it for the rest of the day. Maybe a small juice at night if I absolutely need it, but whatever happens at the restaurant will be IT.
Help,help,help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thank you guys for your sweet comments about the weight loss. I'd say more to effectively show how much I appreciate it, but I'm wayyy too stressed right now. Just know I love you.
XOXO,
Scarlet <3
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Weigh In Day!
So I started this thing with 21 lbs in 21 days...
...And now I am at 17lbs in 14 days!
Yes my lovelies I am 216.0 today, so new low weight!!! Four pounds in a week isn't bad, but I can deff do better!
So the plan this week is:
Bfast: 8oz smoothie or 8oz juice
Lunch: Skippable. Drink water.
Dinner: 8oz soup or 8oz smoothie, but soup will round out my vitamins for the day.
Total cals? Somewhere in the hamptons of 300cals max. Let's see where this takes me!
Charlie and SkinnyBusiness, hahaha, you guys totally cracked me up! It wasn't my intention to make him feel bad and guilty! (Yesitwas, yesitwas, yesitwas!)
Also sorry guys I got sidelined yesterday so I didn't get to catch up on blogs but I will as soon as I can!!!!
Wish me luck on my physics exam!
XOXO,
Scarlet<3
...And now I am at 17lbs in 14 days!
Yes my lovelies I am 216.0 today, so new low weight!!! Four pounds in a week isn't bad, but I can deff do better!
So the plan this week is:
Bfast: 8oz smoothie or 8oz juice
Lunch: Skippable. Drink water.
Dinner: 8oz soup or 8oz smoothie, but soup will round out my vitamins for the day.
Total cals? Somewhere in the hamptons of 300cals max. Let's see where this takes me!
Charlie and SkinnyBusiness, hahaha, you guys totally cracked me up! It wasn't my intention to make him feel bad and guilty! (Yesitwas, yesitwas, yesitwas!)
Also sorry guys I got sidelined yesterday so I didn't get to catch up on blogs but I will as soon as I can!!!!
Wish me luck on my physics exam!
XOXO,
Scarlet<3
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