Hahaha, hello my lovelies!!!!! I am über happy today!!!! So my fast is still going awesome, can't wait to weigh in tomorrow!! Though I know I haven't cut my cals as much as I'd like...but I am in the peaceful existence of not having to truly worry about what I eat. It's not like I'm going crazy with the liquids anyway!
My physical chem exam went okay...hoping for a B on it. It was a super hard exam though!! Gosh, no phase diagrams or graphs like she drilled us on, just the hard calculation shit. Gah, whatever. I do well on quizzes and homework for this very reason. I have enough points to balance out a less than ideal exam grade.
Soo yesterday went great! So you guys know how I was way pissed at A because he didn't friend me on FB a month ago when he said he would. And I could sit around and bitch and moan all semester OR I could do something about it and not be a wimp.
So yesterday we were walking after physics (oh yeah, we do that now) and before we were about part ways I took a chance:
"Oh wait, I've been meaning to ask you something."
"Yeah?"
"Why didn't you friend me on facebook?"
He gave me a blank stare before answering, you know, like he had no idea what the hell I was talking about.
"Um, did you add me?"
"No, on your birthday you said you were going to look me up on facebook but you didn't and I was kind of like what the hell?"
"Oh, oh, I'm sorry, I just forgot!"
"Well I guess that's better than you just didn't do it."
"No, no, I'm sorry. Here I'll do it now. You were probably like oh this guy's a jerk, jerkface, big freakin' jerkface, why is he talking to me when he didn't even friend me on facebook!" Wow talk about self-inflict.
"Not really, okay, maybe a little." I said with a smile. A cracked up laughing while he pulled up FB on his Iphone.
"Um what's your name again? I'm sorry I'm just really bad at names, it's not you, I'm just really bad at names." Okay...
"Scarlet Mylastname"
"Okay, here you are and add...there we go." I whipped out my blackberry and accepted it right there.
Okay, I know he forgot my name, but now that I think about it, he has trouble remembering MF's name and they already know each other and have at least two classes together and they have the same major so I don't feel bad. I love how he was so apologetic and self-inflictish. Like he was really kicking himself for forgetting, which is right where I want him!!! Hahaha.
Comments!
AthANAsy(gosh I hope I got that right): hahaha, you can totally get one!!! I mean, they're $200 but completely worth it!!!
M-ilie: oh I deff know what I put in everything. I can make 60oz of smoothie for like 500cals max. For the whole thing. Ridiculous!
Off to catch up on blogs! And study for my physics exam that's tomorrow!
XOXO,
Scarlet<3
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Monday, March 29, 2010
Eeeeeee!!!! I Think I'm Excited.
Omg! I am really happy because on saturday my fam bought this HealthMaster emulsifier. This is more than a blender my dears. In the past two days I have made veggie/fruit smoothies, and hot freakin soup!!!!!!! Yowza I am totes gonna make this fast with this thing around. No more: woe is me for soup I haveth not.
Now: oh, only veggies layeth about, then I shalt emulsify them into a fulfilling soup that shalt not get betwixt me and my skinny jeans.
Hahaha, I'm in a silly happy mood. Anyway, the point is I can stick to my guns and get skinny!!! I'm gonna weigh in on thursday because technically speaking that'll be me fasting for a week, and then only two weeks from that, it'll be APRIL 15!!!! Eep! Hopefully my number will be good!
Today the plan is more working and studying. Damn you semester, hurry up and end!
Comments!
WannaBskinny, M-ilie, and Z., thank you guys so much for all the support and encouragement you guys give me, it keeps me so motivated! Anytime I feel like breaking down or giving up I think of you guys and I wanna make you guys proud, so I stay strong and move on!!!!!<3<3<3 *and hugs*
XOXO,
Scarlet<3
Now: oh, only veggies layeth about, then I shalt emulsify them into a fulfilling soup that shalt not get betwixt me and my skinny jeans.
Hahaha, I'm in a silly happy mood. Anyway, the point is I can stick to my guns and get skinny!!! I'm gonna weigh in on thursday because technically speaking that'll be me fasting for a week, and then only two weeks from that, it'll be APRIL 15!!!! Eep! Hopefully my number will be good!
Today the plan is more working and studying. Damn you semester, hurry up and end!
Comments!
WannaBskinny, M-ilie, and Z., thank you guys so much for all the support and encouragement you guys give me, it keeps me so motivated! Anytime I feel like breaking down or giving up I think of you guys and I wanna make you guys proud, so I stay strong and move on!!!!!<3<3<3 *and hugs*
XOXO,
Scarlet<3
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Dissapearing Acts
I feel as if I am fading away, slowly. Everyday I fast I lose another bit of me, and I put the energy towards other parts of my life: my schoolwork, catching up with my friends, deciding how to deal with the boys in my life. Strip it away, use it up.
I am looking slimmer now, pretty sure I've dropped at least 3 lbs (though I haven't checked). I'm gonna weigh in on wednesday to get my weekly total weight loss. Then I'll be able to adjust my liquids and such to be able to make my goal! Hmm, feeling pretty lowkey today. I'm happy, but pretty under the radar. It's probably because I've been working so hard studying and doing homework. I have two homeworks due monday, three homeworks and an exam on tuesday, and a quiz and an exam on thursday. God help me. this isn't even finals so I should stop complaining, but idk, I like to whine about school! It's funny, I can't wait for the semester to end, but by june I'll be missing it again. But I'm gonna learn how to drive this summer and try to get a job at the school library. So I should be busy busy busy!! Hahaha.
Comments!
WannaBskinny: aww thanks so much babe!!!!! *hugs*
M-ilie: I think it's awesome you started a blog and I think you're doing awesome so far!! Also I hope I pick the right one between A and SC too!
XOXO,
Scarlet<3
I am looking slimmer now, pretty sure I've dropped at least 3 lbs (though I haven't checked). I'm gonna weigh in on wednesday to get my weekly total weight loss. Then I'll be able to adjust my liquids and such to be able to make my goal! Hmm, feeling pretty lowkey today. I'm happy, but pretty under the radar. It's probably because I've been working so hard studying and doing homework. I have two homeworks due monday, three homeworks and an exam on tuesday, and a quiz and an exam on thursday. God help me. this isn't even finals so I should stop complaining, but idk, I like to whine about school! It's funny, I can't wait for the semester to end, but by june I'll be missing it again. But I'm gonna learn how to drive this summer and try to get a job at the school library. So I should be busy busy busy!! Hahaha.
Comments!
WannaBskinny: aww thanks so much babe!!!!! *hugs*
M-ilie: I think it's awesome you started a blog and I think you're doing awesome so far!! Also I hope I pick the right one between A and SC too!
XOXO,
Scarlet<3
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Ping-Pong
Hey guys, I'm doing so well today!!!! It's 10pm and I am going strong!!!! And I will keep going!! Only soymilk, fruit juice, and soup today!
Um, so my day has been, how to say this...interesting. So you know I planned to talk to SC. But that didn't really happen. I didn't get to talk to him in class even though he was practically right behind me. I wound up talking to A and J. Then I wound up leaving with A, that is until he realized he might be having a "moment" with me and suddenly had to go to some random building on campus. Whatever. Then lab rolled around and I wound up sitting there by myself talking to the TA because I showed up so early. Okay. Then lab started and SC was late and MF was on a plane to St. Louis. So A had no partner and my partner was crazy late. Guess who wound up being my lab partner today?? Yep, me and A together for the second time today. Ridiculous. Then SC shows up and partners with us. Awesome. But then this ditzy skinny girl shows up late too and her lab partner isn't coming. So before anyone can say anything guess who VOLUNTEERS to be her lab partner? SC. Damn it all to hell. Then this Indian guy doesn't have a lab partner either so he pairs with them too. Three pretty people all in one group. Why God, Why?
But it was kinda nice with A. We were so close to each other during practically the entire lab (it was capacitors and wires and breadboard circuits) and his arms were so warm. I have this thing about warm skin on guys: I love it, I just get all excited and it feels like I've got electricity running through me and I never want it stop!!! So yeah that was awesome and he was being normal. We were cracking jokes and since A wants to be a surgeon so I let him do all the breadboards and it was hilarious to hear him cursing at the wires that didn't want to go in:" get in there god damnit!" Hahahaha. Then he's all, sorry I swear a lot. And I was like, eh, you're only a little worse than me.
Oh I thought you were homeschooled where'd you learn to curse?
From my friends...who curse a lot.
It was like that really nice and easy. Then when we left lab, my dad hadn't shown up yet to pick me up so I was going to have to wait in the vestivue (don't know how to spell it). A was totally leaving me and Idk why, but the words flew outta my mouth before I thought about it:
"Oh you're just gonna leave me here to wait by myself, that's lame"
He halted at the door and turned around and looked at me, a tad shocked.
"Well, I could wait here with you, if you want."
"Yeah, that'd be cool." So we sat and talked. He was asking me why I still lived at home and not at the dorms. He was all "I mean, you're probably older than me, why not?" Ouch!! I laughed it off.
"Eh, they say I'm not old enough, and I'm not older than you." I said without thinking.
"Really, cause I'm nineteen." Liar.
"Yeah I'm younger than you."
"Oh what if I was sixteen, are you younger than me now?" He says jokingly as if it's out the realm of possibility. Getting warmer my boy.
"Haha, no, older than that."
"How old are you?"
"Seventeen." Damn my mouth! His eyes got wide as saucers.
"Seriously? What are you some sort of child prodigy?"
"Some people say that."
"So what are you a sophomore?"
"No, I'm a third-year."
"You're a fucking third year?" Oh it was funny. Then my dad showed up and I was all: "you're like the only person on campus who knows how old I am, apart from my four friends from my old school, so please don't go telling everybody, okay?"
"Oh, oh, all right." He says distractedly, trying to wrap his mind around it. I shouldn't have shocked him like that. Oops. Oh well, maybe he'll stop acting so weird now. I hope so anyway.
I'm starting to feel like a ping pong ball, bouncing between two boys. A, when he's not acting weird is adorable. SC, when he's around, or in some setting to talk, is really sweet too. But what about me?!? The semester is gonna end soon! Make up your damned minds! Boys, you gotta love em, but somehow hate them at the same time. Ridiculous.
Comments!
SkinnyBusiness, GTMS-Becca, WannaBskinny, thank you so much for your support on the last post, and expressing your like of the ten random things!!!! Maybe I can add: I beat obesity and I picked between A and SC, sometime!
Arianna: I'm glad you like my letter to food!!! Haha.
Okay guys, I am off to go starve and sort my life out the rest of the way!
XOXO,
Scarlet <3
Um, so my day has been, how to say this...interesting. So you know I planned to talk to SC. But that didn't really happen. I didn't get to talk to him in class even though he was practically right behind me. I wound up talking to A and J. Then I wound up leaving with A, that is until he realized he might be having a "moment" with me and suddenly had to go to some random building on campus. Whatever. Then lab rolled around and I wound up sitting there by myself talking to the TA because I showed up so early. Okay. Then lab started and SC was late and MF was on a plane to St. Louis. So A had no partner and my partner was crazy late. Guess who wound up being my lab partner today?? Yep, me and A together for the second time today. Ridiculous. Then SC shows up and partners with us. Awesome. But then this ditzy skinny girl shows up late too and her lab partner isn't coming. So before anyone can say anything guess who VOLUNTEERS to be her lab partner? SC. Damn it all to hell. Then this Indian guy doesn't have a lab partner either so he pairs with them too. Three pretty people all in one group. Why God, Why?
But it was kinda nice with A. We were so close to each other during practically the entire lab (it was capacitors and wires and breadboard circuits) and his arms were so warm. I have this thing about warm skin on guys: I love it, I just get all excited and it feels like I've got electricity running through me and I never want it stop!!! So yeah that was awesome and he was being normal. We were cracking jokes and since A wants to be a surgeon so I let him do all the breadboards and it was hilarious to hear him cursing at the wires that didn't want to go in:" get in there god damnit!" Hahahaha. Then he's all, sorry I swear a lot. And I was like, eh, you're only a little worse than me.
Oh I thought you were homeschooled where'd you learn to curse?
From my friends...who curse a lot.
It was like that really nice and easy. Then when we left lab, my dad hadn't shown up yet to pick me up so I was going to have to wait in the vestivue (don't know how to spell it). A was totally leaving me and Idk why, but the words flew outta my mouth before I thought about it:
"Oh you're just gonna leave me here to wait by myself, that's lame"
He halted at the door and turned around and looked at me, a tad shocked.
"Well, I could wait here with you, if you want."
"Yeah, that'd be cool." So we sat and talked. He was asking me why I still lived at home and not at the dorms. He was all "I mean, you're probably older than me, why not?" Ouch!! I laughed it off.
"Eh, they say I'm not old enough, and I'm not older than you." I said without thinking.
"Really, cause I'm nineteen." Liar.
"Yeah I'm younger than you."
"Oh what if I was sixteen, are you younger than me now?" He says jokingly as if it's out the realm of possibility. Getting warmer my boy.
"Haha, no, older than that."
"How old are you?"
"Seventeen." Damn my mouth! His eyes got wide as saucers.
"Seriously? What are you some sort of child prodigy?"
"Some people say that."
"So what are you a sophomore?"
"No, I'm a third-year."
"You're a fucking third year?" Oh it was funny. Then my dad showed up and I was all: "you're like the only person on campus who knows how old I am, apart from my four friends from my old school, so please don't go telling everybody, okay?"
"Oh, oh, all right." He says distractedly, trying to wrap his mind around it. I shouldn't have shocked him like that. Oops. Oh well, maybe he'll stop acting so weird now. I hope so anyway.
I'm starting to feel like a ping pong ball, bouncing between two boys. A, when he's not acting weird is adorable. SC, when he's around, or in some setting to talk, is really sweet too. But what about me?!? The semester is gonna end soon! Make up your damned minds! Boys, you gotta love em, but somehow hate them at the same time. Ridiculous.
Comments!
SkinnyBusiness, GTMS-Becca, WannaBskinny, thank you so much for your support on the last post, and expressing your like of the ten random things!!!! Maybe I can add: I beat obesity and I picked between A and SC, sometime!
Arianna: I'm glad you like my letter to food!!! Haha.
Okay guys, I am off to go starve and sort my life out the rest of the way!
XOXO,
Scarlet <3
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
For Better Or Worse
I always wondered why the hell that was put into wedding vows. I mean, I knew why, but I didn't get how it could really seem that bad when you're with the one you love. But now, now I get it very clearly.
I was doing so well today you guys! Only 580 cals by 7pm. It was great. Then my dad wants to get some collard greens at this vegetarian place. It's heaven for a vegan, but total hell for me. So I said I wasn't going. He's all, I hate to eat alone, blah, blah, blah. I said no, so he's leaving without me. Then before he totally leaves he says magic words: I'll get you soy ice cream. That's still on your fast right?
Damn. Soy ice cream at this place has the consistency of soft serve yogurt, which means, yeah I could eat it. So I go. He doesn't even order greens. He gets this stir fry veggies dish with veggies and tofu and brown rice goodness. Then he gets the veggie noodle soup and a piece of cornbread. My strength was waivering quickly and fleeing me. I just sat there, eating the ice cream while he eats. Then he claims he doesn't like the soup, do I want it. I tasted the broth. I was soooo good. I figured I could just sip out the broth and leave the noodles. But what's this? He leaves the cornbread on the plate. Oh I don't want the cornbread, I say meekly. Don't eat it then he says. Before I know it everything is gone and I am splitting a lemon cake with him. My brain is screaming at me: what the hell are you doing!?! What about the fast!!! What about the people who are counting on you!!!!
I ignored it. That is, until I got to the car and the gravity of it hit me hard: I failed. I let food win. I'm a bitchass. Then I looked at the clock. If I could get home within twenty minutes I could purge it. My house is two blocks from the restaurant so I think I am homefree. Then my mom calls. And I love her so very very much and she works the night shift (not overnight) so she calls at her lunchbreak. I cut my dear mother short proclaiming I had to, ahem, use the bathroom. I sped into the house and put up the dire perishables (yeah we went grocery shopping, I bought a bunch of soup and such), I grabbed a seltzer water and I ran upstairs. I downed the fizzy water and purged like hell. I could tell what was coming up by the taste: salty and sweet, that must be the cake and the soup, then total sweet, which was the ice cream. I stopped after that, satisfied I'd reversed the damage. I know I said I wasn't gonna purge again, but gosh it's hard. So my one month streak is over. Hopefully it'll be worth it. The scale had better drop.
Man, it's a shame, I am a pretty, smart, witty, and lovable girl with a small part of her broken. I have to say I mostly blame my dad for today though. He had a slice of pizza earlier and I was ragging on him about it. He fires back that I had a gump (whatever the hell that is) of my mom's pizza a week ago so I'm just as bad. I proclaim I only ate one mushroom off of it (literally, I did) and he says it doesn't matter I still broke down. He doesn't mean it maliciously, he just doesn't know about my problems. He then goes on to lament about my other past food transgressions that were "worse" than his pizza. So yeah, I was feeling guilty all day even though I hadn't done anything. So when I did do something, I went overboard with the guilt factor and purged.
You know it's kinda funny that even if I got involved with someone (like SC) they would probably never know and they'd never guess it because I'm always upbeat and positive. Not exactly someone you would finger for having an ED.
No worries though, today is behind me and I will keep trekking on. I will fast tomorrow and all the other days until then. I will remember tonite and not want to repeat it. And when I say I'm not going in a damned restaurant, I'm not going in the restaurant. I will be strong and keep fighting.
Comments!
M-ilie: aww thanks for the support babe, yeah when you're around people it is hard to fast (I should know). It would be awesome for you to start a blog!! You don't have to do anything special to have a good blog, just be honest and be yourself and it'll turn out great. Having a blog has motivated me more, I mean I'm more likely to complete things I plan when I tell you guys, or some sort of make up like a fasting day. Good luck!! <3
GTMS-Becca: yeah, I'm pretty sure adam would have a major fit if you did a long fast!! But thanks for being supportive!!
WannaBskinny: monday is great for you to jump in. I'm pretty sure we'll be able to motivate each other better because I'll defo be in the swing of things by then!
I will be so strong girls, but I'm just gonna do it and stop blabbing on about it so much. In the words of the tagline for the movie kick-ass says:
Shut up, kick ass!
Hahahaha!!
XOXO,
Scarlet<3
PS: almost forgot I promised becca I would write some random things about me:
1) I am teaching myself to write with my left hand for the heck of it.
2)I have written two novels. Teen lit
3)When I was young I was obsessed with the spice girls
4)I am addicted to marshmallows and avoid them at all costs!!!!
5) On my birthdays I wind up eating about a half of the cake!
6) I have regular dreams of making out with whoever I am crushing on (rite now sleep is VERY nice)
7) I tell my dog all of my secrets!
8) I am obsessed with Japan!!!
9) I will go to school unless I am unable to move.
10) My little cousin (he's ten) has a crush on me and I pretend I don't notice!
Okay ten very random things about me!!! <3
I was doing so well today you guys! Only 580 cals by 7pm. It was great. Then my dad wants to get some collard greens at this vegetarian place. It's heaven for a vegan, but total hell for me. So I said I wasn't going. He's all, I hate to eat alone, blah, blah, blah. I said no, so he's leaving without me. Then before he totally leaves he says magic words: I'll get you soy ice cream. That's still on your fast right?
Damn. Soy ice cream at this place has the consistency of soft serve yogurt, which means, yeah I could eat it. So I go. He doesn't even order greens. He gets this stir fry veggies dish with veggies and tofu and brown rice goodness. Then he gets the veggie noodle soup and a piece of cornbread. My strength was waivering quickly and fleeing me. I just sat there, eating the ice cream while he eats. Then he claims he doesn't like the soup, do I want it. I tasted the broth. I was soooo good. I figured I could just sip out the broth and leave the noodles. But what's this? He leaves the cornbread on the plate. Oh I don't want the cornbread, I say meekly. Don't eat it then he says. Before I know it everything is gone and I am splitting a lemon cake with him. My brain is screaming at me: what the hell are you doing!?! What about the fast!!! What about the people who are counting on you!!!!
I ignored it. That is, until I got to the car and the gravity of it hit me hard: I failed. I let food win. I'm a bitchass. Then I looked at the clock. If I could get home within twenty minutes I could purge it. My house is two blocks from the restaurant so I think I am homefree. Then my mom calls. And I love her so very very much and she works the night shift (not overnight) so she calls at her lunchbreak. I cut my dear mother short proclaiming I had to, ahem, use the bathroom. I sped into the house and put up the dire perishables (yeah we went grocery shopping, I bought a bunch of soup and such), I grabbed a seltzer water and I ran upstairs. I downed the fizzy water and purged like hell. I could tell what was coming up by the taste: salty and sweet, that must be the cake and the soup, then total sweet, which was the ice cream. I stopped after that, satisfied I'd reversed the damage. I know I said I wasn't gonna purge again, but gosh it's hard. So my one month streak is over. Hopefully it'll be worth it. The scale had better drop.
Man, it's a shame, I am a pretty, smart, witty, and lovable girl with a small part of her broken. I have to say I mostly blame my dad for today though. He had a slice of pizza earlier and I was ragging on him about it. He fires back that I had a gump (whatever the hell that is) of my mom's pizza a week ago so I'm just as bad. I proclaim I only ate one mushroom off of it (literally, I did) and he says it doesn't matter I still broke down. He doesn't mean it maliciously, he just doesn't know about my problems. He then goes on to lament about my other past food transgressions that were "worse" than his pizza. So yeah, I was feeling guilty all day even though I hadn't done anything. So when I did do something, I went overboard with the guilt factor and purged.
You know it's kinda funny that even if I got involved with someone (like SC) they would probably never know and they'd never guess it because I'm always upbeat and positive. Not exactly someone you would finger for having an ED.
No worries though, today is behind me and I will keep trekking on. I will fast tomorrow and all the other days until then. I will remember tonite and not want to repeat it. And when I say I'm not going in a damned restaurant, I'm not going in the restaurant. I will be strong and keep fighting.
Comments!
M-ilie: aww thanks for the support babe, yeah when you're around people it is hard to fast (I should know). It would be awesome for you to start a blog!! You don't have to do anything special to have a good blog, just be honest and be yourself and it'll turn out great. Having a blog has motivated me more, I mean I'm more likely to complete things I plan when I tell you guys, or some sort of make up like a fasting day. Good luck!! <3
GTMS-Becca: yeah, I'm pretty sure adam would have a major fit if you did a long fast!! But thanks for being supportive!!
WannaBskinny: monday is great for you to jump in. I'm pretty sure we'll be able to motivate each other better because I'll defo be in the swing of things by then!
I will be so strong girls, but I'm just gonna do it and stop blabbing on about it so much. In the words of the tagline for the movie kick-ass says:
Shut up, kick ass!
Hahahaha!!
XOXO,
Scarlet<3
PS: almost forgot I promised becca I would write some random things about me:
1) I am teaching myself to write with my left hand for the heck of it.
2)I have written two novels. Teen lit
3)When I was young I was obsessed with the spice girls
4)I am addicted to marshmallows and avoid them at all costs!!!!
5) On my birthdays I wind up eating about a half of the cake!
6) I have regular dreams of making out with whoever I am crushing on (rite now sleep is VERY nice)
7) I tell my dog all of my secrets!
8) I am obsessed with Japan!!!
9) I will go to school unless I am unable to move.
10) My little cousin (he's ten) has a crush on me and I pretend I don't notice!
Okay ten very random things about me!!! <3
Rules Of Engagement
Hey guys!
So I am doing well with my fast so far, I haven't had anything!!! Not even water (even though I should). My stomach is empty and I can feel it pulsing lightly. Looking for something not there eh?
I am so excited that we have a little fasting group now!!!
Me, SkinnyBusiness, and WannaBskinny!! Woo, we can do it!
Okay so WannaBskinny was wondering about the rules of the fast, so I thought about and here they are:
1) Max of 600 cals a day, unless you have a crisis on your hands in which case you can go to 800 cals. But this is in a crisis only. Like if you're somehow trapped at a restaurant and claim you aren't hungry but you still have to get a drink. 500 cals and under is absolutely GOLDEN though!!!
2) Most any liquid is not off limits, except anything with high fructose corn syrup or any kind of "modified" additives (they'll have in the name. Like "modified corn starch), just because those things are horrible for you. I won't ban diet sodas, but I should warn you aspartame, sacchrine, splenda, and the like have been shown to cause your body to crave sugar, and it also highly affects your capacity to remember things. So drink at your own risk.
3) Yogurt is allowed, because it's pretty much a liquid. I don't eat yogurt personally (I'm almost vegan now) but I know some of you have it as a bit of a staple so I thought I'd let you know!
4) Smoothies are allowed!!!!!
5) Exercise is not required, but try to get more active!! Every calorie burned helps!!
So those are the rules, and if you think they're lenient, keep in mind we are going for 21 days. It's like a race, you have to pace yourself so we can finish and feel successful and victorious!!!!
School went well, no SC, but I'll see him twice tomorrow! So no worries. And Becca, I will definetly "flirt flirt flirt!" Haha, love you babe.
SkinnyBusiness and WannaBskinny, I love you guys too and we're gonna do it!!!!
XOXO,
Scarlet <3
PS: anyone who wants to jump on the fasting train feel free to come on board anytime!!!!!
So I am doing well with my fast so far, I haven't had anything!!! Not even water (even though I should). My stomach is empty and I can feel it pulsing lightly. Looking for something not there eh?
I am so excited that we have a little fasting group now!!!
Me, SkinnyBusiness, and WannaBskinny!! Woo, we can do it!
Okay so WannaBskinny was wondering about the rules of the fast, so I thought about and here they are:
1) Max of 600 cals a day, unless you have a crisis on your hands in which case you can go to 800 cals. But this is in a crisis only. Like if you're somehow trapped at a restaurant and claim you aren't hungry but you still have to get a drink. 500 cals and under is absolutely GOLDEN though!!!
2) Most any liquid is not off limits, except anything with high fructose corn syrup or any kind of "modified" additives (they'll have in the name. Like "modified corn starch), just because those things are horrible for you. I won't ban diet sodas, but I should warn you aspartame, sacchrine, splenda, and the like have been shown to cause your body to crave sugar, and it also highly affects your capacity to remember things. So drink at your own risk.
3) Yogurt is allowed, because it's pretty much a liquid. I don't eat yogurt personally (I'm almost vegan now) but I know some of you have it as a bit of a staple so I thought I'd let you know!
4) Smoothies are allowed!!!!!
5) Exercise is not required, but try to get more active!! Every calorie burned helps!!
So those are the rules, and if you think they're lenient, keep in mind we are going for 21 days. It's like a race, you have to pace yourself so we can finish and feel successful and victorious!!!!
School went well, no SC, but I'll see him twice tomorrow! So no worries. And Becca, I will definetly "flirt flirt flirt!" Haha, love you babe.
SkinnyBusiness and WannaBskinny, I love you guys too and we're gonna do it!!!!
XOXO,
Scarlet <3
PS: anyone who wants to jump on the fasting train feel free to come on board anytime!!!!!
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
It's Not Me, It's You (or is it the other way around?)
Dear food,
I hate you. You disgust me. Even when I don't give into you and am very controlled, I hate that I have to think about you. Every. Single. Second. Will you make me gain? Can I have you? I'm so sorry but not really, I think you need to find someone else to annoy.
May many curses fall upon you and may you rot in hell,
Scarlet
Back to your regulary scheduled blog.
I am done with food. Seriously. I did so well today. The only solid was a kashi golean bar and some random samples. Everything else was liquid, which was just some carrot/veggie juice and a smoothie. I didn't even start eating till like 4:30pm. And yet here I am, wondering. Did I eat little enough? Will I lose weight?? I am sooo done with this shit. I am officially liquid fasting until further notice. If I am too bitchass to do that for a while then I deserve to have food riding my brain like a giddy up horse. I like the carefree existence I have with liquid fasting, and BONUS, I don't have to worry about passing out in front of someone (though I've never passed out in my life and have no idea what the warning signs are). So that's the plan. I must be under 200 lbs. I keep pushing back the deadline yet never moving towards it. Something must change. It is almost APRIL. I was supposed to be 195 by the start of MARCH! I must lose, and soon! My first goal is under 210. Then it's all single digits to get below 200. This must be done by APRIL 15. Hold me to it. If you ever hear so much as a waivering in my voice remind me. That gives me 21 days. Three weeks. Gotta lose like 20 lbs (or less, haven't weighed myself yet, probably won't though, don't have the mindset). I will do this. If you wanna join in let me know! We can form a big network!!!! Liquids for 21 days!!!
In other news, I didn't get to see SC today. He didn't show up to class. *tears* also, I didn't get him a gift because technically I'm not supposed to know his bday. That info was courtesy of google (he has a VERY unusual name. Nice, but unusual). So I was going to nicely lure it outta him. It's okay, I might see him tomorrow and I know I'll see him thursday in physics class and lab.
Speaking of physics lab, I have arrived at a very strange conclusion: my TA has a crush on me. Now, this has been rolling around in my head for a minute because he's always teasing me. Like playfully. Oh physics is the central science, not chemistry, he tells SC (because SC is thinking of changing his major from physics, but NOT to chemistry so the comment made no sense except to me, the chemical engineering major). Then on thursday I turned in my quiz at recitation and sat back in my seat. At recitation after the quiz you can leave, unless you want to see the solution and ask questions.
"Oh you're staying? You're not absolutely positive you got everything right?" He asks a tad mockingly. I half roll my eyes.
"No it's not that, it's just that I don't have anywhere to go right now." Burn! He eases into the back of his chair.
"Oh, well, you could always stay and help me study for my qualifiers." His qualifiers were friday and he had his flash cards or whatever, but this is for him to graduate with a MASTER's DEGREE in physics. I am in an undergraduate physics 2. Are you kidding me!?! It was funny too because I think SC kinda looked at the TA weird at that comment. Yay, he cares when the 24 year old TA is nonchalantly hitting on me! The hilarious thing though is that the TA doesn't know I'm 17!!! (Neither does SC, he just knows I'm a third year. But hopefully one day he'll ask so I won't look like a cougar!!! Rawr!)Hahahahahaha
"No I'll have something to do by then." I reply smoothly. Yeah, like talking to SC. Also, my TA looks like a who. You know like as in Whoville? Yeah, so that was never going to fly. Not even if I was still 270 and especially not when I'm 220.
Anyway...I am so happy with you guys!!!! I mean wow, it's awesome to have so much support and love going around. M-ilie, Mina Belle, Charlie, Emily, SkinnyBusiness, and Bl33ding Truth (aka Secret), I love you all so much and you are the greatest thing since the digital scale. Haha. <3<3<3<3<3<3 (one big hug for each!!!)
XOXO,
Scarlet <3
I hate you. You disgust me. Even when I don't give into you and am very controlled, I hate that I have to think about you. Every. Single. Second. Will you make me gain? Can I have you? I'm so sorry but not really, I think you need to find someone else to annoy.
May many curses fall upon you and may you rot in hell,
Scarlet
Back to your regulary scheduled blog.
I am done with food. Seriously. I did so well today. The only solid was a kashi golean bar and some random samples. Everything else was liquid, which was just some carrot/veggie juice and a smoothie. I didn't even start eating till like 4:30pm. And yet here I am, wondering. Did I eat little enough? Will I lose weight?? I am sooo done with this shit. I am officially liquid fasting until further notice. If I am too bitchass to do that for a while then I deserve to have food riding my brain like a giddy up horse. I like the carefree existence I have with liquid fasting, and BONUS, I don't have to worry about passing out in front of someone (though I've never passed out in my life and have no idea what the warning signs are). So that's the plan. I must be under 200 lbs. I keep pushing back the deadline yet never moving towards it. Something must change. It is almost APRIL. I was supposed to be 195 by the start of MARCH! I must lose, and soon! My first goal is under 210. Then it's all single digits to get below 200. This must be done by APRIL 15. Hold me to it. If you ever hear so much as a waivering in my voice remind me. That gives me 21 days. Three weeks. Gotta lose like 20 lbs (or less, haven't weighed myself yet, probably won't though, don't have the mindset). I will do this. If you wanna join in let me know! We can form a big network!!!! Liquids for 21 days!!!
In other news, I didn't get to see SC today. He didn't show up to class. *tears* also, I didn't get him a gift because technically I'm not supposed to know his bday. That info was courtesy of google (he has a VERY unusual name. Nice, but unusual). So I was going to nicely lure it outta him. It's okay, I might see him tomorrow and I know I'll see him thursday in physics class and lab.
Speaking of physics lab, I have arrived at a very strange conclusion: my TA has a crush on me. Now, this has been rolling around in my head for a minute because he's always teasing me. Like playfully. Oh physics is the central science, not chemistry, he tells SC (because SC is thinking of changing his major from physics, but NOT to chemistry so the comment made no sense except to me, the chemical engineering major). Then on thursday I turned in my quiz at recitation and sat back in my seat. At recitation after the quiz you can leave, unless you want to see the solution and ask questions.
"Oh you're staying? You're not absolutely positive you got everything right?" He asks a tad mockingly. I half roll my eyes.
"No it's not that, it's just that I don't have anywhere to go right now." Burn! He eases into the back of his chair.
"Oh, well, you could always stay and help me study for my qualifiers." His qualifiers were friday and he had his flash cards or whatever, but this is for him to graduate with a MASTER's DEGREE in physics. I am in an undergraduate physics 2. Are you kidding me!?! It was funny too because I think SC kinda looked at the TA weird at that comment. Yay, he cares when the 24 year old TA is nonchalantly hitting on me! The hilarious thing though is that the TA doesn't know I'm 17!!! (Neither does SC, he just knows I'm a third year. But hopefully one day he'll ask so I won't look like a cougar!!! Rawr!)Hahahahahaha
"No I'll have something to do by then." I reply smoothly. Yeah, like talking to SC. Also, my TA looks like a who. You know like as in Whoville? Yeah, so that was never going to fly. Not even if I was still 270 and especially not when I'm 220.
Anyway...I am so happy with you guys!!!! I mean wow, it's awesome to have so much support and love going around. M-ilie, Mina Belle, Charlie, Emily, SkinnyBusiness, and Bl33ding Truth (aka Secret), I love you all so much and you are the greatest thing since the digital scale. Haha. <3<3<3<3<3<3 (one big hug for each!!!)
XOXO,
Scarlet <3
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