Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Airplanes and Shooting Stars

You know, I wasn't going to post today...but I can't go without you guys for long!!! Sunday was a wash but not a big one. Just not a fast. Meh. Which brings me to today, which was a fast. Yay. But you know I don't feel as happy about it as I should. I feel like I keep yoyoing between the same pounds over and over again. It must change. I know, I know, well stop screwing things up Scarlet!! But idk it's like sometimes I can't stop it. I eat too much. Not even close to binging I guess. But a bowl of pasta is still pretty fucked up in my book. I purge and workout and yay I don't gain. This is not an existence AT ALL. This should not be happening. Look at all those people who eat so damn much and lose weight. What the hell is wrong with me??? Why is my metabolism so dead? I just want to be thin. That's all I ever wanted. And yet it's so far away. I fail all of my deadlines no matter what I do. And time keeps passing me by. I want to do better, but how can I do better when I don't know what I'm doing wrong?? This is turning into a rant. I have to go to bed so I can go to work in the morning. I wish I had three wishes, I would wish for a million more and then fix everything that's wrong with me.
Comments...meh, not tonight. It's 1:30am. Katie, Violet, I love you.
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  1. They say that if you fast, it kills your metabolism. That's why I'm afraid to do it. I'm trying to stick to eating small amounts every few hours, keeping my overall calorie amounts hovering around 1,000 or less.

  2. Maybe a little restriction is in order. Adding in a couple of low-cal meals a day for say a week or so might rev up your metabolism. Or perhaps it's the purging- I always end up gaining more weight than I avoided when I purge. Find something that will mix up your metabolism. Good luck!

  3. I vary my fasting with days with at least one meal. That boosts my metabolism and helps me to lose weight. Fasting over and over again puts your body in starvation mode and kills the metabolism. At least for me. Good Luck, babe!

  4. Hello dear,
    I know exactly how you feel about the low metabolism. to kick start it you will have to eat... i know it sucks, but just get in about 800 cals a day for a whole week. then fast like crazy. make sure you only eat proteins and complex carbs if you can help it,

    with love,

  5. Yeah, high protein, low sugar, low fat is the way to go. Think tuna, cottage cheese, egg whites. Protein increases diet-induced thermogenesis (your body "burns hotter" when digesting protein than it does when digesting fats or carbs). Also, if you don't already, you might want to add some weight-bearing exercises to your workout routine to add muscle, since the more lean muscle you have, the higher your basal metabolic rate will be.