I don't understand it. I have been doing everything right and I am not getting the results I want. Scratch that, I'm not getting results AT ALL.
I'm sorry I didn't blog yesterday, it was kinda rough. After three days of liquid fasting (500 cal, 480cal, 750cal) I weighed 210.0 lbs. I was so pissed I just stared at the display blankly. How could I not even be 208 or 207??? What did I do wrong? I couldn't come up with an answer though. "This is not working," a sweet voice whispered softly in my ear, but I ignored it. I decided I was going to water fast. Epic fail. I had a piece (read large square) of sweet potato pie, a shit ton of pasta, bananas, and a tofu wrap. I purged all of it effectively and then I saw this story on inside edition on fifty cent. Hot damn, google this. He lost 54 lbs in nine weeks by liquid fasting and running on a treadmill three hours a day. I got all motivated and did two hours of cardio and thirty minutes of strength training. I said that obviously I needed to kick it up a notch. Yeah, all that notch kicking put me at 209.8 lbs. Woop. de. doo.
So I am water fasting today. I have four days to lose ten pounds (*bangs head against wall*). God help me. I am also going to do another two hours of cardio, and pump my body full of l-carnitine caps. Burn baby burn. I'm hoping to get to 206 by tomorrow, then I'll probably water fast again because what the hell? I have to eat on sunday (very little I swear I will stick to "I'm a vegan!" The host is filipino so I think I'll get away with eating next to nothing!) And I figure on monday I'll water fast again. Hopefully all of this will result in a lovely 199 on june 1. I am highly determined to break this barrier because honestly, I can't push back the deadline anymore. I've pushed this deadline back at least every month this year. I refuse to do it anymore. I don't care that my body wants to sit here like a lump on a log and not lose weight. It's mind over body. If I water fast and do two hours of cardio everyday, eventually my weight must go down. It has to concede because I am not going to break. Ever. I'm not used to having my body fight me, but I'm not scared of a battle. This is where the rubber hits the road. Bring. It. On.
Z: aww thanks babe!!! <3
Violet: *scarlet likes this* lol. Finals are a total killer, but once they're done you feel so free to do any kind of restriction you want without worrying about having enough energy to go through classes and stuff!! Just wait we're gonna run circles around people soon!!!<3
Katie: lol, I'm kinda obsessed with calculating other people's calories. It gives me a sense of peace, hahaha. <3
Elle: no prob babe! <3
Fat-fat-fat: hey! Is there another name you go by? Omg thank you so much!!!! Your comment gave me a warm fuzzy feeling!!!! You can totally do this, we all slip and fall but the strong ones are those that stand back up and keep going! <3
Jo: yeah you're right, my parents love me, but you know, misery loves company. Thanks for your comment, it means a lot! <3
Ana Banana: hahaha, thanks!! These nuggets of wisdom come rarely, lol. <3
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